Happy Birthday !!
Your birthday present will be up soon, if not tomorrow

I just wanted to write a little journal in appreciation for you, my friend
If there has been anyone who deserves to be a posterchild for the fandom, it would probably be you
You were there since the beginning, one of the few to stay with the fandom and stay active in it even when you had other interests
Your universe, your characters - you have created a rather large universe that has contributed greatly to the community
And even in other fandoms, you have made your presence known
You are truly a loved person, let today be a day where you realize it such

I think it really is a miracle we have remained friends through some hard times
And I think, that we have never been closer before
Strange how that worked out, huh?
I really enjoy every rp, every conversation - it adds a lot to my day
And our daily exchange of notes are part of my daily ritual here on this site
You are my primary supporter through out Blood Sport
I always can expect a comment from you, which truly meant a lot when the ambition to continue writing was strained due to lack of feedback and response from others

I owe you a lot, in many ways
I think you were one of the primary reasons I was pulled so deeply into the fandom
And here I am today, still writing NC-17 material for a cancelled children's cartoon
But I digress, I have learned a lot through this site
Even though, since I included internet and networking to my life - it has generally been a miserable experience
Where there were times where every day for months on end was simply condensed shit constantly shoveled in my face (Did not help that I shoveled plenty of cement into my own coffin at times too, with other people)
But hey - there were fun times to be had and these days are some of the highest I have had when it comes to e-happiness

Let me just be honest here
I have a very nihilistic view on life and the internet in general
When it comes to online friends, we all hang out with each other out of convenience
I mean, I hardly think that we would all get along as well as we do behind a screen at times
But if there was someone I could ever consider a friend through and through - you would be in the very short list, somewhere near the top
Times have changed, perhaps for the better, perhaps for the worst
I miss the days that you would send me postcards, some sketches and the occasional nitnack
I still have the little angel statue and the Buddhist bells
As well as the Islamic mosiac styled little journal
If it were not for the hassle of the Russian postal system, especially here where I am at - I would love to open the line of interaction again
Perhaps some day -but for now, I occasionally poke the Buddhist bells for inspiration when I am writing, they are the main reason I even referenced Tibetan and Zen Buddhist beliefs in my Blood-Sport entries

It is nice that we talk and rp more, now that we live in similar if not the same timezones
I was cautious about contacting you again, those months ago
I think I tried to set up an rp with you again before but it did not lead anywhere
But we really hit it off as friends again, when we started communicating
And I think it was one of the best things I have done all year
Truly - I have forgotten what it means to have a true, platonic love for someone online

You know - we will probably never meet
I won't even entertain the idea considering our financial situations
But, years from now - when our lives have moved on beyond this site
Where we will have our own families, new responsibilities and no time to rp like we used to
I will remember you, as one of my best friends
We have taught each other a lot, that is for sure
It would be sin not to remember the moments we shared
The good
The okay
The bad
And the shit
But is life without such experiences?

So happy 25th birthday
Feeling old yet?
I know I certainly do
I hope your day is great and I hope that you get the attention that is well deserved
You've made it through another year as a human being on Earth - arguably one of the shittiest places in the solar system that happens to sustain life

As for everyone else - be sure to wish our friend here and honourary pillar of the fandom a good birthday
And remember - we all have that one friend we will remember forever
So let them know that you will just do that
Relationships can stab you in the back, rivalries can splinter ambitions, infatuations distract the psyche and jealousy or envy cripples the heart
But a true friendship is kind, it does not boast, it keeps no records of wrongs, it is not envious and it is fulling in the truth, not present only in lies and mistakes
Stay honest and true to the friends you hold the closest
There will be a day where we are all on different crossroads and tracks, probably never destined to meet again
And while a single bad memory can kill you, several good ones will keep you alive
Godspeed everyone